Fly Me Like A Sunday

Last month, we were merely weighing the possibility of breaking the impossible that sounded like forever. Which by all means flying off to a holiday destination with many blessings from parents for me, handful of budget for Ev and studying the maps of Sabah entirely in one week for Emily. We were actually struggling between the strangest combination of destination to go- Kota Kinabalu or Hong Kong. Exasperated with my inability to enclose an independent trip for just once sake, I am more than contemplating a location where we could hang around for more than 3 days without burdening too much on budget, so KK it was. So we three planned ahead with mucho of yes yes yes and few weeks later, we were good to go. Of course the only dude in the group Mr Loo Yee Keong needn’t care shit about the planning because he will be going over swimmingly anyway as long as the hotels provide good bed wtf.

And we were very excited and encompassed this trip with the term legendary as we have been leading a fairly boring and clean life for too long. We wanted to be existential this time! Only with a little bit different from your visualize.

You see, my father works for MAS. And enough with the question, Is he a pilot? Because no, he is not. He just sits comfortably at the back of his chair planning a road schedule for every damn plane. And the MAS offer free cheap tickets for their staff, valid for only family member. Obviously the other three would be taking Air Asia and I am flying solo on MAS. So you can imagined when I were to fly alone, I kept rabbiting on the fact that I would get lost or board a wrong plane quite incomprehensibly, which is totally understandable, if you knew me long enough. I have a negative percentage value of direction sense. I used to get lost in Pyramid. First day, aren’t that bad being dumped alone in the KLIA airport while the rest went to another terminal. In fact, I was still half asleep among the crowd of passenger with my small luggage, striding through a shortcut from dad’s office into the airport. And because my dad was nagging a little too much, honestly. He is hard to penetrate intellectually at times.

On my way to KK, I transited for 45 minutes to Brunei and did manage to catch a glimpse of the airport. And when I got back into the plane, more than half being was gone with the wind, and I am left with two annoying middle aged man whom are busy amusing themselves with Taiwan pop star material song list, which aren’t exactly the right match between the age and the glowing faces, made me had a funeral inside my brain. Now I wished I had taken the offer for jump seat. I could have caught a better foretaste of the almighty clouds and getting feisty with the pilots and the endless buttons. The last time I sat was 2 years back. Damn. I landed with a ride from Uncle Eric, friends of dad to pick up the rest from Terminal 2. And my mind went blank prose when I saw their luggage. My god. It was enough to lay on the entire Africa.

Kota Kinabalu is well, basically a small town with enriching nature soil. We only got to explore some bits of the city and natural habitants. Due to the fact of limited budget and transport, we stayed in a self budget hotel which turned out to be not bad. The air was crisped and moisturize but the weather was unbearably hot. The sea smell always filled the air and one has to constantly planned you journey well ahead as the city is constantly buried with traffic jams. After a while exposing to the air we will pretty much get sticky as the jetty are a 10 minutes walk down the street, which is to say it is a grasp of convenient when it comes to exploring the island!

#1 The hotel we stayed in was the freezing point straight to my tip. We just reached the room and within five minutes i am shivering badly. Then it took us 15 minutes to realize we could hear each other out through the thin wall between. Such coolness. At the 3rd day an electricity breakdown occured and the whole building sank into a black solitude and thats when you get Emily and Ev set into motion giving one another a heartful scream out of the pitch black, while yee keong cursing monotone could be heard from the far end somewhere. I am too restless to be bothered haha.

 

#2 My lovely side bed! This was the only light shining through when the electricity breakdown and for your information, there weren’t a single window in all rooms. The illusion draw by the curtain did confused us at the beginning. While the cold breeze in the room wasn’t pleasant at all, i tried to draw open the curtain for some sunlight but all i get was a blank white wall. I try to digest the common sense behind these curtain wall while Ev find this amusing and thus roll and laughed. This was also the historical place where we played pictionary. Yee Keong bounce up and down the bed illustrating WONDERFUL! on his face for his fascination towards this thingi. We on the other hand, nearly vomit blood.

(Showed Yk his word to draw. It was King Kong. )

Yk: Omg omg lemme start! Emily guess ah!

(He drew a head with a row of mildly weird but understandable sharp teeth while me and Ev watched with such amazement, trying to get a glimpse on which part does actually look like King Kong)

Emily: Wolf! OHHHHH WEREWOLF!

Yk: YESS! HOMG WE WON! (both sprigged up and hugged with joy)

(Meanwhile, we both stare at them with the jaw hanging down, and only register the situation after 10 seconds.)

Me: WTF. Eh uncle, WRONG WORD LAH HOMG.

Yk: What! Werewolf what!

We: NOOOOOO. (Showed him again)

(He started drawing a big muscular dude with lotsa fur and used the end of the oen to poke on the bare chest of the picture hahaha.)

Emily: TARZAN! POPEYE! …

We: (Giving hints) King What!

Emily: KING OF THE JUNGLE!

We all slapped our face punctually.

The Aftermath Of Goodbyes

Seems only yesterday I walked into the fallacy of farewells. I felt being appreciated for once in my life for the fact that I was all alone to board a plane. This is the shape and taste of life I have been yearning for years. People had always amazed me, especially in airport. I wandered around so pumped up after I managed to convince my dad I can take it from here and chased him home. I definitely wasn’t having a delirium when I spotted two Irish couple chasing with time to catch their time, while teasing each other off heartlessly. I listened to a Korean and Spanish conversation, bumped people onto their knees with the huge ass trolley and then repeated for the next 2 minutes. But apart from all that, I have to admit the moist feeling that glittered through me when I observed many shapes of goodbyes and felt almost as if I just swallow a wasteful of happiness. I am groped at the millionth time gazing at those silent goodbyes. It’s incredibly beautiful, the human distance, yet incredibly disastrous. How did we ever survive it? Then it strikes me that what really matters at the end of the day was the once upon a time. We will be better again, or not.

Yesterday, I woke up in an airport.

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Soundtrack: Queensryche – Silent Lucidity

Alone In Everybody

I just pulled this out from a collection of dust.

I named it Black Dancer.

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1. I just got back from KK and I cant wait to transfer the experience into words.

2. Jason Mraz is invading Malaysia on the new March! My ear needs some salvation. I got fascinated by his official website btw.

3. Every word I inked through made me doubt how would you readers judge me, and why would I even care.

4. I am dying young. And no, that wasn’t just a negative deliberation.

5. I cant wait to sway into a bucket full of nonsense with Li Jen. She’s back! :)

6. They would still exist until the end of the day, but we would still be the story. Unheard of.

7. Damn, damn, damn.

8. I will soon breathe the world.

9. First, Cedric Diggory. Today, Edward Cullen. Next year, Salvador Dali. Robert Pattinson is finally painting some fiction into his life. Little Ashes (2009)!

10. Check out Mike Harrison.

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It was three years ago. Sigh.

Feeling: Decay

Soundtrack: Azure Ray- Sleep

Now these years locked in my drawer

I’ll open to see just to be sure

I Wonder

My holiday just started, just in case you people are still clueless. And here I am again talking about lives and how we lived it. Such clichés. I longed for my sleeping smell yet strangely I still stayed wide awake at 4 in the morning everyday. There’s just something so atmospheric in the night that I couldn’t possible give them out and sleep like that. Someone please slap some sense out of me. I feel jolly wasted to sleep over time I hardly obtained in this field and would rather occupy them with films, books and people. Talking about films, I am gonna do some write up on films review these few weeks so read up people!

As much as I love to be drowned into perpetual passion offering never ending assignment, I absolute crave for the instant of doing absolutely nothing but only indulging in my own presence. Everyone needs to get your feet on there someday somewhere. Trust me.

For now, I am here for an overdue tag. Maybe more than one, I think.

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Tagged by Rachel

List down 7 things that you believe had changed you life, in terms of the way you think, the way you perceive the world, etc. Make it a long answer.

1. Films- If you refer to my series of collection. Every film revolves about questioning yourself and defining the conspiracy in your own thoughts and be drowned with the beauty of ordinary details. And when the feeling hit you like a wave in the ocean, you’ll be grasping on a mind blowing moment and throw away everything you once believed in. To capture the echo that runs wildly between frames to frames and immortalize the soul of character by one of the very best actor. Good films are always the essence of beauty through the directors eyes and it does changed you so faultily because human beings choose to live a quiet roots of ordinary life most of the time. It filmed out the many more extraordinary in the world where we come to realized life is a journey, not a process. Every good ones inspired me more than anyway you could possible imagine and made a little better out of me out of the hurricanes and struggles. It is truly a box of personal effects for me who needed bigger answers.

2. People and Conversation- I love conversations with people. Conversations with thoughts and amusement mind you, not so much of the borrowing phase in lines and goes Awwwww at every one line. Silent conversations are always the best; although I am still not quite sure how it did sound like. It made me pondered a lot and be surprised by better thoughts, or a harsh statement of disparagement. The patterns always changed. Through that, you meet people. People who lived beyond your fantasy, people who live in such simplicity I find hard to swallow in, people who laugh at your thoughts and call you a psychotic, people who loved their other half so selfishly, people who define gossipmongers as themselves, people who are running in race everyday, etc. And as you pull yourself slowly from every being, you will come to yearn that they are nothing more than half the truths and the distance between human being’s bond was never an easy realizations. This made me feel something is still worth pining for after all, the recollection of people’s memories.

3. Family- You can definitely forget about a norm in scene where parents squirm with kids during a lazy hazy Sunday afternoon and talked about their life and occasionally rewarding hugs and kisses with each other. I’ve totally forgot about existence of that part. It was very unstable in my road. And as I grew up, I almost couldn’t visualize a future at downpour yet strangely we all still stand strong among each other, like it or not. I guess that’s how different life has chosen for me. As the eldest I try my hardest to maintain a balance between the traditional mindset and my ever burning desire of bigger things by breaking the norms and a bit of rebel I presumed. That shaped up my independence so much because there’s always something we couldn’t afford and I know better than nothing I could only hold on to an honest opinion and hardships towards bigger things in life instead of the false giggles and sweet talks thrown by people from most surrounding exchanging among their kind. And I wouldn’t wanna place fault on my parents as I know a better part of them will only grow stronger and the better reminiscences they had given me once upon a time. As for my siblings, they pissed me off to hell yet they rock in so many indifferent ways, you just have to wait and see. We are and will always be a stronger survivor out there.

4. Peeps- They were always the one who made my high school life worth a glimpse and they still are today. I think my circle of peeps is always the weird wreck case haha. You see, instead of practicing the hugging with besties rules, we would be ranting over very weird stuff and stunts and actually take action on them. That’s how we communicate. And that’s how people always put on stare that either written the word disgust, astonishing or amused. We would talked about one thing and the next minutes we squatted right in the middle of the walk way cause it was a way too funny topic and we couldn’t manage to bring our two feet on grounds with balance. I always perceive a warmer world out there with their existence.

5. High School- Was mostly filled with hypocrites and liars and you would be surprise if I were to tell you everything I observed, heard and spoke to. Of course most of the people never knew and they choose not to anyway. Especially in my high school, human valued were doomed by political and powers. Those who outshined most were granted with every possible access of academic placement and the rest of us were meant to be dysfunctional in a way, when we were the one clearing up the mess backstage or be the one working our asses of to retain their precious president place. And it so happened that staff loves them. So much you just had to shut your mouth or else be landed with a bad record oh graduation cert. Nothing was fair. Though I see things are much better now. I’m glad. And those 5 years made me realize that I was given an early preview of the society and the harsh cruelty of humanity today. And to remind myself I just need to make a long walk to find a start of a journey.

6. Words- When you realize everything revolves around words, you will be awe struck by how the complexities of words changes everything. Either spoken words or written words. It is only through words one can truly grasp the most blended abstract thoughts without having to explain themselves. But more importantly, I learned to yearn for a better inspiration through the inked words of others. Writers, as we put it. Words they choose to flutter from their extraordinary minds, allowing them to travels through time and eternity because the meaning behinds those words will always be part of the narrative for everyone. That’s how words spice up the solitude world of today. At least, for me.

7. Strangers- Just because. I think it’s the fact that I know nothing about them made me realized that time smudges my memories of the faceless and then tickles away without rewarding me with anything. Maybe that’s why I love observing people. I mean, strangers.

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Memes by Winnie

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now

1. I wished you well, everyday and in my deepest sincerity. Yet sometimes, I wondered how you’d remember me.

2. You never ever listened and I despise that.

3. I will always remember that hand and those quiet eyes, waving for the bread man in a lazy afternoon, just to get my prawn tidbits worth your collection of coins saving. And although we had never spoken much for my young age and your weak body, I still remember every gazing at the skies we stared together quietly before you were gone and I moved on. I still remember the instant I let go of that gazed. I still remember to stared upon the soundless sky everyday.

4. I like your smile. A lot. :)

5. Maybe letting go would be the best solution, and that only comes from a realization. Wake up.

6. Sweet talk and that body language really don’t smooth much effect on me. Yet I would hate to spit words out like venom hence just stop the stack of meaningless act.

7. I agree with your harshness but I am just too proud to admit it.

8. Thank you for such an awesome piece!

9. I always thought you were different in style and everything. People like you inspire me a lot :)

10. Stop ranting and for once, do some proper hard work.

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I shall tagged 10 human below and you guys get to choose which one to do! Fun eye?

1. Michelle Chan- I cant wait to read!
2. Kwan Yi- I missed your thoughtful words haha.
3. Joanne Loke- I think you tagged me once so here’s my torture reward heh.
4. Tah Eve Lynn- Duh how can you not do this?
5. Nadrah!- Yours gonna be interesting, I am sure.
6. Zhi Kang- Since you don’t know what to write.
7. Li Wen- You have only one choice sir haha.
8. Li Jen- Hugs woman! Come back fast!
9. Amir- Because you hated tags. :)
10. Emily Wong!- Since you rotting.

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Holy Cow. That was tiring. My brain are drained. I cant wait to start on Big Fish review! Good December people. I just realized I also did a tag post at this time last year. How bizarre.

Just you wait.

Feeling: Sleepy
Soundtrack: El Ten Eleven- I Like Van Halen Because My Sister Says They Are Cool