TOA Day 112
June 8, 2008
Okay I am totally cheating on myself if I denied on the fact that I envied on class 2’s luck for obtaining good lecturers for practically every subject. No offence but I am down to dumps about that. But I am cooling of with that now I suppose. Candice as I mentioned in my previous post, was the sane reason that keeps me in clear mind on pursuing Advertising Design. It’s like she would just wowed me with some extra stuff in a class and in my entire high school life not one educator could sod that out. The whole out of mind perception and thoughts. And I am not just referring to her one soul being, there’s also lecturer like Li Wen my Design I lecturer. Okay, in fact it’s the whole department lah. That is so far my summary for Design II.



#1 Design 1 during last semester. Yeap that would be Li Wen and tutor, Vivien in the middle. We took this with like 3 cameras at the same time I think. Therefore Li Wen’s expression was caught on tape haha, spot people. Below would be Raymond and Nash on drugs while others circling LiWen for marks. Damn high.

#2 Color diary(CD) sharing session wtf. Okay I’ll start with mine. Actually I took damn a lot but I shall post one page only lah to prove that I am not self obsess. This would be my Grass Flavored Ice-Cream! Which the whole class gave me in return with deadly stare and Kenny’s hopeless head shake. It’s nice okay, trust my imagination people. It’s never wrong. Extracted from my color diary Pressed In A Book which Li Wen kept back for some exhibition and I haven’t got back ever since.T___T

#3 Ting’s photography version CD. Very Awesome.

#4 Sean’s abstract piece. Damn huge okay. I carry his album my whole body would slide straight down. It only look small here cause he’s a giant. Oh btw people this is the Korean in the class, Sean. Acrylic freak. Drummer. Freaking tall. I so needa do a people post next time.

#5 Zhen Yu’s. Talented dude with uhm very persistent attitude.

#6 LZK’s CD rake color diary. I have no idea how he got the patience to paint this bits by bits.

#7 Kane’s wardrobe! Haha I personally think the hanger is damn cute. I know, of all thing, the hanger…

#8 Funny Florence. Haha Fleur, meet Florence *smirks. Her CD, royal style theme. Damn grand wei.

#9 Tiny’s Happy Meal’s CD hahaha. He loves drawing detail stuff, I mean look at that.

#10 Kenny’s emo stuff. The whole rebirth thing. Why your face like that lah.

#11 Raymond the street smart’s. The piano CD! He practically built everything from the scratch okay. Too bad I cant show you here but there’s lots of inner fun in it. You get t pull up a holder from the side to support the piano. Like this. Then the whole thing could be open up and his diary would just drain out like telephone book holder. If not for his laziness, I would call him a genius haha. Uh in case you needa a image reference, he’s the dude on drugs just now in the picture above.
p/s I shall blend in BITS of my last semester tales inside long with this semester. Save time.
Calligraphy & Letterform is basically an outcome of what you people see in dafont.com. We design the form based on a theme, or rather an object, and if you so happened to be chunked in Debbie’s class, then bless you, one are to design letterforms based on CULTURE. Which doesn’t left us much choice but to research day and night on Indian temple, Egypt acrobat, Chinese ghost 18 levels of hell with coffee. Lots and lots of coffee. For all means of excruciating to come. I mean no offense on her attitude or method of teaching but first up, I don’t think those reading lines by rows from a book and such systematic non flexible teaching methods would actually fit in the creative industry, plus she’s a senior lecturer. SENIOR LECTURER. It’s like she’s trying to grow old faster or something. And most importantly, by letting us off one hour late doesn’t makes one look any more professional okay. And the nerves you had to guilt it on us when you were the one late for class.
But other than that, I suppose she DOES KNOW stuff in this field I guess. Judging by the way she request extraordinary out of objects like bamboo, cats and dogs. Sorry bout the long feud.
Communication Skills, just one thing-I am fascinated by the dramatic entry and theatrical speech Desmond made every week. That’s all. He’s something like that lady drama teacher you see in High School Musical, except that he is cool with cell phones in the class. In fact, he is cool with everything under the sun, just as long as you produce pretty stuff for him to attach up on his Baba Nyonya restaurant’s toilet. But it’s all cool. Having your copy writing advertorial poster on the wall of a Nyonya’s toilet will still grab the attention, like for those who are peeing and have nothing else to do.
No, scratch that. It is part of the growing and toughens up your wings process. Like first your stuff get posted up underground and eventually it will be on bill board sorta thing. So in this case toilet would be the same thing-
Anyway. Whatever. Point is, it’s a good thing at least bit.
3rd subject goes to Figure Studies. Ultimately my favorite. Seriously I have never been happier to study human forms than when I was in form 5 burying my head in Biology books. Its uber fun. Let’s see. First semester was all about head and face structure. So you guys see me a lot in rushing up 4 portraits in a week. Plus up with the best lecturer and tutor one can have-Way Chuan and Khai Koon, I really got nothing to complain about, except for the part where they were being unappreciated and therefore this semester, disappointment and whatever was obvious. Okay, whatever. The impossibility of relationships and self-worth is never an easy realization. I have given my best. Those are not within my power and shield to decide. So that was last sem which obviously I have shown you zero portraits. Sorry. You know why. Figure Studies II are spaced out into the whole body and gesture is what we are practicing at the current. Heaps of fun!

#12 Way Chuan! On a critique session from last semester. Spot mine. :)

#13 Khai Koon the tutor! On a demonstrating. He inspire many with his huge talent okay. You should see his before and after. Jaw dropped.

#14 Sem1. Heath Ledger(sigh) by me.

#15 Sem1.Keira Knightly by me.

#16 Sem1. Ben Affleck by me.
Drawing I and II. Love this class. With the easel, charcoal and all. Sem 1 lecturer-Jun Mei and Lisa are some talented hotties okay. Most probably come across as warmest lecturer ever. They are JUST.SO.NICE. Period. Then this sem we have the so called Barbie doll lecturer, Yan Ning. Seriously dolled up at all time, in a nice way of course. Always greet with chuckling and demand us to dolled up as well in her class haha damn cute right?! Seriously why are the whole Illustration department packed with such pleasant people?!

#17 Too amusing to ignore. This is what happened what more than 3 camera’s involved. Tiny’s obviously on drugs and we all look so happy jolly goody in the drawing class :) I initially did an animated format picture but it cant loop in here! So too bad.
History of Art II. (blank) I mean, its history lah. Lecturer’s weird though. It’s a phase of interesting fact through his class but only to certain extent where only selective hearing would understand. Say, Jason Mraz would understand him but not Lindsay Lohan. That kind. It’s fast paced deep, filled with a small percentage of craps, honestly. Those interactive experimentations was totally unnecessary.

#18 Sem 1 History of Art Finals. My group’s final piece. Self portraits of us into Van Gogh. 7 individual’s interpretation on their own self portraits then combined and form a story.

#19 Other’s group remake on Van Goghs. Very awesome piece from every single details. You can see tiny chairs made by toothpick. And the coffee tables. They even put a lamp inside the café. I mean the whole form of the café was actually made up. And I get to stack up the chairs on the table. Gee.

#20 Tiny’s group/ Love the concept. Where the statue wouldn’t let go of Pepsi.

#21 Sean with his cave art. Omg he looked like Rain here. Anyway. Anyway. I still’ve got more on other groups so I shall post up if assignments don’t kill me by then, and partly because I cant find them.
And last but not least, Design workshop. I am neutral with this. Just glad that I survive on Gwen’s bra in Li Wen’s class last sem. I’ll show you.


#22 GWEN STEFANI. Homg did I mentioned this was nightmare? Just look at the outline created dots by dots by me, Oh well, happy that I got an A for it.
This semester (cough) lecturer’s switch to Michael. Okay one thing straight, I think people should stop calling him “Lou Po Zhai”, that Hong Kong TVB character majingi thingi. He so do not deserved such hijacked just for some occasionally retard sense of humor. Apart from that, he had been bearing nice to all beings and patience okay. Hell lots of patience, I mean just look at June’s case. He can actually bear with June and teach her stuff nicely and that actually goes through her brain cells safely. She’s doing so much better than last sem okay. You people are really never in an easy realization to appreciate seriously. Never ever. And I am glad to know he do have the effort of scolding people unlike some rare kind lecturer.
Why am I so bitchy now? :(
I don’t mind you throwing tomato at me but that’s a fact so please deal with it.
Wookay so Design workshop. Basically its bout designing programmes like Photoshop and Illustrator, so far. Last sem was Illustrator and we were required to produce a concert poster some sort. I named it murdering attempt. This time would be Photoshop and to final’s to produce poster based on Surrealism. And Michael-haha, he’s Wai Hong’s soul mate. They breathe eat sleep for Mac. That’s how Wai Hong put it- “ I love Michael”. Heh. Well, he’s funnily weird for me, but I think he’s awesome. Especially after he finds my ice cream addiction very funny. Oh well.
Toddles. Assignments howling,sigh. I still have got LOADS of words and picture to share. Just wait.
p/s Happy Birthday June :)
Soundtrack: David Cook- The World I Know
Feeling: Exhausted
Purgation
May 13, 2008
New semester started. Promises of updating portfolio, long planned movie marathon of heart warming felt good films, Oh, sod it-of everything stagger back to the ground floor of my memory again. I am so caught up with nothing which left my modesty kind of a sore. It’s like back then the first day of holiday, I have sorted out my priority and that nothing will change it, ever. And then ahoy here I am rushing through Figures Studies thanks to the tragedy that brought me here,
Two plentiful weeks of suspected Denggi attempt-my worst fever, ever.
So I guess I didn’t really stick to my words. My bad.
The nerves I had, to even volunteer for the International CG Convention art exhibition thing organized by The One Academy as their student helper. It was fun, bitchy, leg spoiler and thoughtful. It was everything. Its either I’m still abit of the naïve or that two faced woman’s being pure bitch. See how this get to my nerves, people who are close to me should know that I never intended to announce one as the term bitch in a journal. But this is too much of handling. And that was one part of the event that was a total turn off.
Tell me, is it totally obligatory to speak your point of views for the sake of creating some pointless dramas instead of speaking a straight point of your views? Okay imma finished up the stories dahulu. I was stationed in the life drawing demonstration area during the 1st day and to assist Senior Helper say, A and B (I’ll just try to keep things simple by letters.) And they were awfully nice and pleasant guiding me my role and the demonstrator just so happened to be Way Chuan, the figures studies lecture that creates wonders with his fingers. Everything is nice and order under one roof wtf.
Okay what the heck so cheong hei. Right however, the demonstration was leg killers as we stood from 9 till 9. Dig me? Its standing motion and walking around action we were dealing with over there. And all I did was catching breathe by tucking my ass on the floor. And here comes Senior C, from god knows where like she just popped out from the ground so silently, marching towards me saying,
“Uh harlow.You are supposed to turn over the life drawing already-used sketch pad before the next session started yadda yadda”
To which I kindly replied answers within two facts,
-I DID NOT received any clear orders from my by right seniors A and B. And who the heck are you woman C from some Lalaland here to give random orders?!
-A and B also wired me this way of dealing with those sketching pads, where I wasn’t supposed to turn those drawings over until there’s another tryout by the visitor, just so that it could also served as public display purposes, hello?!
Which part of my language named English don’t you understand?!
And fine if you insisted so badly just for your sake of image and feeling powerful after some ordering, I shall do it then, BUT THAT’S AFTER MY BREAK TIME LAH.
Which is also what I replied you politely.
And what on earth C did?! She vanished into thin air to god knows where and came back after approximately 10 minutes with that huge glaring roll over eyes, turning over me routinely after turning over every sketching pad and then stood in the middle of the subway waving innocently towards one direction and then tadah you get D, the red flaming hair tomboyish woman who walks like aunty. And I wasn’t even slurring a word to anyone and she came marching over to me after C moan rant to her like couples of lesbian you find in Holland, whispering into her ear.
“Erm I heard that you just ignore whatever C informed you to do. I hope you understand that she was The One working here yesterday, so whatever she says you must follow. Summore she is your senior. You do not talk back to her.”
TALK BACK! I even smiled like that invisible cat of Alice in The Wonderland while replying her. I mean, how the heck am I supposed to know that she worked here yesterday, neither did I know who the heck is that after I get the orders from A and B.
Now I really bet they were lesbians.
So I debated, like Su ever wished I did on the whole “fighting my rights” issue, and to where she ends to a final sentence, which is think that’s when she couldn’t understand my point of facts anymore cause I was talking bout self righteous already.
“The point is, next time when a senior ask you to do, YOU DO and you just agree and follow. Don’t Talk Back.”
WTF. NOW I WANTED TO BITCH SLAP HER.
I should have, but instead I just said coolly, We will see bout this when Way Chuan gets back.
And then she put her hand around C and they walk off, like 2 aunties who just won in a bargain battle in pasar malam.
I was enraged with anger until the point when Way Chuan got back and asks me what happened, I kept quiet.
And just kept sticking the charcoal repeatedly in the box.
And he knew what the heck were going on. Okay he does wonders with sixth sense too, by helping me to clear up the stuff.
The next day, I was changed 3 times on different positions all thanks to C doing her ear whispering moment again to the marketing people. And so, she was back to Life Drawing part, and I was placed in the exhibition area.
AND SHE FREAKING GOT LOST AFTER ONE SESSION AND I HAVE TO SPREAD THE TISSUE AROUND WITH B TO THE VISITOR WHILE SHE WANDERED OFF INFRONT ACTING IMPORTANT JUST CAUSE SOME FAMOUS CHINA COMIC ARTIST WERE GIVING HIS SPEECH ALONG TOGETHER WITH THE OTHER SENIORS. CAN YOU BELIEVE HER?!
*IMMA SCREAMS TO TINY AND ZHIKANG*
This is when I was overcome with disbelief and anger.
And we all the tactless juniors were the one controlling the crowds at the rest of the exhibition. PUHLEASE LAH.
If this is the way one handle an event, you guys can hang yourselves lah, I will provide ropes. The brain function should be trench into hell alongside with the Josef Fritzl case that spent 24 years raping her daughter.
Honestly I am so much more in love with the strangers amongst crowd rather than the seniors’ crews whatever. Can I say I love you to the strangers just because they so deserve it with that light hearted random smile they threw me with?
Okay end of rant. I hope she never makes her days in this field, and develop her new identity in the nanny field.
Other than that the event was pretty well. I met lecturers duh, and more of the funny side of lecturers. Tatson Hoi gave me an encouraging smile twice. Khai Koon was being modesty when I was mentioning tons of his artwork around the exhibition. Lisa being extremely concern about my leg situation. Candice gave me a warm smile twice. Way Chuan who talks crap gether-gether. Tiny lending me his ears for my endless rants. Zhikang as secuirity poor him. Met CHAN SIEW YING! And Jade. And many more till the extend I forgot. Oh yeah and a bunch of not so senior seniors. They were bunch of a great company. That’s bout it.
All I can do now is to watch Grey’s Anatomy. Meredith sums up better than I do.
“We like to think that we are rational beings; humane, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful. But when things fall apart, even just a little, it becomes clear we are not better than animals. We have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream, but deep down we are still routing around in the primordial ooze; biting, clawing, scratching out an existence in the cold, dark world like the rest of the tree-toads and sloths ”
-Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy.
There are some things we can never change. Even when it keeps biting onto your ass. All I can do is to think of greater things to achieve. Yet how to? All these attitudes grow on me and freaking eating me up.
Hoyeah Happy Mothers Day to my mum whose driving skills would allege her as a legal F1 racer anytime.
Right, I cant go on any longer, first class was great. Candice is awfully sweet and all I can say is she’s deeper than all lecturer I have seen, that by all mean is referring to she will be able to freaking understand my thoughts on everything. Coolies. I am still struggling with that inner disappointment of my results last term. And laying a thoughts on more sleepless night I am to deal with this semester, I will be sticking hard to Meredith’s say.
“Great surgeons aren’t made. They’re born. It takes gestation, incubation, sacrifice. A lot of sacrifice. But after all the blood and guts and gooey stuff is washed away, that surgeon you become: totally worth it.”
-Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy.
Its pretty much the same thing.
Oh god I just realize I haven’t even summarize a thing on Sem 1. What a failure blogger I am. I am seriously posting up stuff next post. Here’s a small preview on my first Figures Studies assignment. You’ll see my progress when I post up ALL of them.

p/s Jason Mraz and Coldplay’s album’s LEAK. Amen. Jason Mraz fea James Morrison was the best thing that ever happens. Listen to their Details In The Fabric
Art ask questions. Designs solve a problem. –Candice, Design 2 Lecturer.
Just because I’m losing
Doesn’t mean I’m lost
Doesn’t mean I’ll stop
Doesn’t mean I will cross
Soundtrack:Coldplay-Lost Feeling: Bound to Be
Dawn
April 27, 2008
Prologue.
It’s all about being under appreciated in times of numbness. Not that I blame them, they are the best at what they are doing, and that scold was all worth it. Yet for whom, now that’s the question, isn’t it?
Humans. So many bazillions of them running in a race everyday. Those blardy errors in parts of your life might not even be given a damn by others, yet I am collecting into pieces and continue to thrust anger among myself. Have I not been finding myself and giving it all with an extra punch? Or am i just a covered shadow yet no ones telling me? Yesterday’s disappointment in me only crunched deeper by bits.
And I hoped we all did learn a lesson from that pair of cold stare.
Somehow I think that he had given up. Waiting for miracles, that category of given up.
A sense of awkwardness.
Why cant you people just lay some thoughts on your damn life laaaah?!
-Victims.Written at the verge of bursting.
On a happier notes.
I finally watched films that would worth a big 10 notes at anytime, and let my sadness loose in tears.
Definitely Maybe

Sincere, Sweet and a compromising matured act of Abigail. It’s all about how you preserve fairytale genre into the reality facts. A film with intelligence, humor and heart, I would rate this equally best as my all times favorite-The Holiday.
Oh and Me and Ev have this huge crave over Isla Fisher. Her character was sweet sincere with a lil bit of Jennifer Aniston shadow inside of her.
No Country For Old Men

Oscar award nomination film. Remotely deep beginning which audience would find hard to digest at first, yet eccentric in a good way. The storyline gets a little obviously better as the film runs. A brilliant masterpiece staring with that kick ass air gun which we labeled it as Oxygen Tank, that makes him impossible to be killed.
Kite Runner

From the director of Finding Neverland and Monster Ball, what more could you expect?
Coloring Books
War doesn’t create democracy. A film underlining Hassan’s agility, nobility, and loyalty. Amir’s childish efforts to rid himself of the sign of his guilt—Hassan—include his suggestion that Baba turn out his servants and a harrowing scene where he throws pomegranates at Hassan. As the fruits splat blood-red on Hassan’s chest, Amir essentially begs him to fight back, to punish Amir for his moral and emotional failures. Hassan, ever decent, will not, and so Amir is left to punish himself. Truly gripped my heart. Mind you I was crying from the beginning till the very last bit of the film, and Li Wen choose to call at that particular time oh my. Haha.
This might be screenplay written for a lifetime movie. I am reading the book again.
For hope,
To Amir Agha, with my deepest respect,
I dream that god will guide us to a better day.
I dream of my son would grow up to be a good person, a free person.
I dream of flowers would bloom in the streets of Kabul again and music would play in some of our houses. And kites will fly in the skies.
And I dream that one day you would return to Kabul to revisit the land of our childhood.
If you do, you will find an old faithful friend waiting for you.
May god be with you always.
Hassan.
Inspired. So much.
p/s WordPress would be my new territory from today onwards. Many loath on abandoning LiveJournal, the pretty one. Yet it is really hard to maintain a journal when its restricted to everything. Dropped by for a hi. And tell me what you thing. I manage to transfer all my previous post, however, not the comments. AND THAT’S REALLY RANGING MY ANGER. I really treasured those comments okay. Sigh. So here now, many welcomes.
Feeling: Busy
Soundtrack: Ingrid Michaelson- The Way I Am
Sixth Of June
April 2, 2008
Hello world.
Sorry to abandon this journal. Sorry for not updating. I am even sorrier for not smiling at strangers anymore now days. Believe you me,
This moment and my current leaps are mine now.
Its either I take this huge leap with a soar of faith or lose it.
So I am really juicing out every single efforts inside of me. Probably abit more than Every Single, with a bit of hope in me everyday. Hope for a leeway to gain as much experience of a lifetime, to have a laugh, to see beyond the ordinary and most importantly, to live.
But that means a big sacrificing on my normal living life, my sleeping hours and my daydreaming period. It is almost impossible to sleep nowadays. Now that we are due to 3 final project in a week, yes, A WEEK; I REALLY DON’T KNOW HOW AM I GONNA GET THROUGH THIS, honestly.
Every night I would waste approximately, uh, okay lets just put in approximately a long long time to rant pointlessly at a victim.
Me: HOMG *insert name here* I KNOT HABIS MY CD(color diary)! MY POP UP COLORING NOT DONE! MY GWEN’S BRA IS FREAKING HELL! I am STRESSSSSSSSS GILA.
Ev: Good Luck Fella, come I sing song for you (type lyrics..)
LZK: Haiyoh can one lah dun so stress go sleep color fast I also stress.
Tiny: Be positive, eat ice cream (smtg like that)
Like that, this 3 my most kacau-ed victims.
Thing is, I don’t really bothered on what advice they sincerely gave, I hope.
I just need some one to take on my endless rants and crap, just so that I don’t have to talk to the wall and stuck my under toe into my nose : /
You take this as bimbo pointless gibberish. I don’t care man. This is call my method of distressing, and cause my fridge is out of ice cream.
And Proof on my classmates PM:
Zhi Eng: Final Projects+ Presentation+ Exams
Kane: The Busy Academy | Mai Dang Lau De Yue Ding -Haha they all complete assignment in McDonald everyday until they are part of the one big family with workers there edi haha.
Fann: Who can help me finish all my assignments?
Tiny: Okay basically theres nothing there right now but I can guarantee you it is a RAWRRRR last night heh.
Raymond: Shit! My MYVI mirror CRACK. –okay whatever man, this must be cause by the amount of stress.
Angie: Die Oredi | Strength = 0%
Kenny: I miss you –EHM this one too stress until like that edi SEE?!
Yee Hong: Birthday over back to Hell.
Kah Hoe: Lecturers, I beg you, no more assignments pls!
Florence: I wanna burn TOA!! So that I can pass up my assignments later D: -haha she funny lah.
LZK: Next Week is Hell Week.
Seany: What if… -okay whatever I just assume this is he predicting days of not completing the assignment HOMG.
So class story next time round, I promise a good LONG story for you to read whole night long.My class is awesome :0). Kinof reminds me of FICM. Right now I just wanna update a few matters and then be gone with my projects. Just in case I die half way doing, please do help me complete it as well sigh.
So then, todays highlight- Tah Eve Lynn.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay, so Emily went and fetch me home frm TOA as usual, Normal routine. And we spent another good old half and hours to decide WHAT to eat, as usual. Then Emily the queen bee aka driver made an announcement, that we all have to GIVE CHANCE to those hidden area like USJ 9 restaurant, and not to eat continuously in Pyramid atau Taipan. And after she finished, she gave a big nod to herself in the mirror like some senator and start to drive there.
And we randomly picked one Spanish restaurant.
Why? No reason.
Right so cut the crap of us eating like a buffalo with that 70 era Mexican songs playing behind. Gosh how the hell people digest the food with that song lah my god, summore we have Ev there, she learnt to sing that song in like 15 minutes, and you can see her ass and body slightly moving, means she having the karaoke session fever edi.
AND THEN, haha,
Out of the simplicity things going around, Tah Eve Lynn have a hand body sudden vibrate moment and stretch out her hand, and that’s it.
The mango lime drink in the glass shoot straight up to David (Em’s bro) like rocket and his face turned into those expression you see on blockbuster movie when they avoiding a gunshot, and freezes there, shockingly stunned.
HAHAHAHAHA, And what did both me and Emily did? Laugh till roll floors lah my good..
Ev busy with her Pai Se-ing.
Those hahaha wasn’t merly just for fun, it was also because Ev manage to pour the drink and BREAK THE GLASS. Now that’s the fun part haha. Well eh she kinof beautify the glass lah my god but too bad she still have to pay up for the damage. I nearly puff out my mouthful of mango drink when the manager brought the bill for a broken glass.
With SERVICE TAX. ROFL.
Exactly what service provided we have no idea, maybe the picking up broken glass session and ask Ev, Miss are you hokay?
Exactly RM 4.03. Homg funny.
Blame the moment the waiter brought out our after meal fruits lah. One pathetic plate with 5 tiny slice of honeydews with 3 forks around. Nothing else. Just the white background and the 5 fruits. And then Ev break the glass cause her laughter vibration are like super terror one.
Okay I’ll see you guys in like 2 weeks time, pray that I’ll be alive till then.
Class story and Joanne’s tag then.
Bear with my schedule Amir and Fleur :( I will make it to TCPJ. Someday Siigh.
Hugs.
Virtuous sensibility
Escape velocity
Nothing can compare
Soundtrack: Finley Quaye & William Orbit- Dice
Feeling: Numb
Say
December 6, 2007
___________________________________________ There you go. Right now I have got it all figured out. My future and stuff. And because of this major change that would most probably be happening, life doesn’t suck that much anymore. Although Donald Trump would have wished me good luck for the sake of dying in a more peaceful way( my future), at least I’m pretty sure that Natalie Portman would congrats me for finding the things I love in my own backyard that I have long hidden. And I am happy knowing that John Mayer would most probably agree too. “I don’t want to ever be working just for money because then you are no different than a prostitute,” so did Portman said. I would most probably be transferring to The One Academy. The place I once buried so much faith and passion in it, the place that I always feel the divine feeling guiding me towards art, designing, film. and so much more. Even though I ended up in Mass Comm. due to financial problem, I still try to think of it as a miraculous combination and crave for my passion. Now that the scholarship department are yet to informed me that my scholarships qualification does not include Multimedia Design but only Journalism and Communication in Media Management. What? For the sake of mankind’s greatest achievement, No Way I am going into that. And this time, its hard to believe that I insisted for this long. Stayed firm with my beliefs much more stronger than the 1st time when I was fighting my way through with family to NOT study in Mass Comm., as if this was my final straw. Now look where I stand. My dad actually agrees. Not completely-still thinking, but hell yeah thinking. However, with more blunts and blinks to risk on. Financial problem still existed, duh. For that, my dad could only support me for a complete 3 years Diploma. And from there onwards, I would be completely on my own. On my own two feet. For real, six feets from the edge On My Own. Its either I worked with my very own portfolio or I earned a scholarship itself to pursue on degree overseas. The skies suddenly screened out much more wider than usual. I realize I am evolving into a completely original human history where thoughts occur one instant and action occurs at the very next. And it won’t stop there. I mean, I have already completed the task to actually fought for what I want. The future generations: the children, will eventually grow into an even more complex society and dream even bigger dreams. And there would be no single one to stop them.
Why do we?
I’m happy to take the risk. I’m happy being me again for the past few years, this would be the very Moment, for the first time. I’m happy doing this one thing that I’m aware of never it feels like that.
This could be the very minute
I’m aware I’m alive
All these places feel like home
With a name I’d never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I’m sorry doesn’t mean
I didn’t enjoy it at the time
-Chocolate- Snow Patrol
Just because I’m happy on moving on, doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy it at the time.
Here I went through a roller coaster ride with FICM for a blink of an eye, and life had been wonderful.
I wished you all well, just in case I am really leaving. Go achieve big and great things, even if it only cost a few clouds and breeze who cared to stop by and watch. Good Luck and Good Night.
JUST IN CASE. Dont bug me with it yet.
For the Student council prom,
As for Student Prom, really nothing much. I shall let pictures get busy then. Just a small FYI, me, Fleur and Jason get to eat the amount of 12 adults meal for free, because they picked us to share tables with the emcee and the light & sound fellows. Obviously the table only contained 3 of us smiling sheepishly. Yallelujah.
As for Why did I wore LIKE THAT. They informed me that my job was ushering. USHER. That would be appropriate enough for ushering purpose. And the sandals were for comfortable pleasure, yealah this one my fault. You should have been there to see the glares at me. Typical. What? Who sets legal rule stating that Punkish rock style are not allowed in Prom? I can even wear naked there if I want. Period.
One more reasons to let Alicia go on with her “Zheng Joo is a bimbo” theory. :)
FICM. I am officially a guy that night.
Black & White Blending.
Take Two. Notice how many phones am i carrying.
Student Council. See its just 3 of us sapu-ing food.
Girls. Deb looked wow.
Ahah this group singing, all they did was, “Uhuh, yeah, yo, yo, yo,…” Like that nia.
Mun Suet
Don
Shannon. Look at my sunburn.
I like this picture. Evon, Jason and Alice.
Jesslyn! She damn cute and i like that dress.
No needa introduce this dah. I freaking wearing sandals.
And lastly, the sunburned partner, Fleur.
Listening to: Augustana-More Than A Love Song
Stop and Stare
November 30, 2007
Woke up with the sun today and slept with the rain yesterday. Everyone is overtaking everyone nowadays, busy with his or her own footsteps. Somehow its just me who got lost. Not yet dead though. There’s been pretty much of ups and downs lately and there would be pink Elephants crossing the road and waving at me pretty soon. I am nearing an one year achievement. That, I shall capture more with you in a new post later on. Right now, I just woke up from a 25 hours sleep. The 4 hours sleep in continuously 3 nights was totally predictable. That one was for Film editing. People, wait till you see my film! We swerved through one jungle of hardships. Next post is where it shall be. All I wanted to express in this tiny short post would be declaring that the owner of
this journal is not dead. Just thought I would write to say all is well and i am predicting an endless long post next, recording my enlightened journey and events for the past one month. You guys just wait. Childrens burpday party always remained the bomb cause they would get superduperuber cool priority like throwing cakes around and they would be easily satisfied by pens and pencils. They loved getting pencils and pens when Roxy bag seems to be the only appropriate gift in todays trend. Very Cute and Creative pencils I must say. Its one of those tiny lil springed out object jammed on the backside of the pencils. This one particularly caught my attention because its nothing like plastic toys imported from China. Its more crafty in a way of saying. Mazing huh? You should check out on how I joined in for the pencils sharing-amongst-children ceremony. The child’s parents were looking at me with eyes as wide as dinner plate.
Not to forget the tons of DVDs piled up against every corner, waiting to be watched. I just Dont Have the Time. Die die die. And these are good films so no way i am giving it back without watching it. Tell me which moron would have the effort to borrow and then choose not to watch it and then return? Not me. Films are ear and eye cancer medication. Except a few recomended by Florence like Wicker Park. I hope its not all just bout passionate sex scene god. American History X, yess i will try to finished it, Su! *stress. And then from films, you would have their soundtrack and if it just so happen to be a good one, your ear cancer would then be curable.
Anyhoo. It was my very first driving class today. Thankfully he didn’t went missing again. Name’s Roger and I’ve got the same instructor as Ev again. So what else is new? The process was quite okay I guess. I mean I did normal stuff like letting go the clutch and caused mati enjin incident which set of the car to jumped; knocked down one of the six tiang when parking. I also, however, did abnormal stuff like talking to myself when I am panic. Like serious shit talking to myself. There was one point where he generally left me in the car all alone to get drinks, I talked to myself like no other business. I talked to the gear, the clutch, the mirror, the six tiang, the break, the steering wheel, the car, the window, the notes, the tree, the grass, the backmirror, the sand and last but not least, the tires.
” Okay just go down slowly, you are only a gear that get molested by millions of people everyday, so give me a break and go smooth with the L way so I get to the damn gear 1..”
“…suppose to press fully on you ALL THE TIME. So can you dont let go my feet?! oh great here we go, the engine died again, clutch-gear, clutch-break, wth were you thinking doofus you were supposed to press on the clutch…”
“.. and there we go tan zheng joo, homg wth is this (flies).. Okie adjust the mirror women, okay adjust mirror…”
” (look through the back mirror) Homg I banged a tiang. (Breathe) A freaking tiang, and I am all alone. whatamgonnadonow?! am I supposed to go down and replaced the tiang to its position, or am I allowed to bang more since its first time?!”
“Damn you break, damn you…”
“Freaking steering wheel what bone you having here, heavy sial!! and I am supposed to turn you right and left for the rest of my life with your 70kg weights,aaargh..”
“Feel me, car.”
“Hello window, reach that blardy tiang will you?”
“…dothis dothat dothis dothat.. and I cant remember which way the tires should moved to..what shall I do now lets see.. stuupit tires…”
Plus 11 freaking steps/formula for side parking. Whats wrong with the world?!
And my feet is in love with the accelerator. They kissed it so hard every time they meet until the car would fly over the scope instead of crossing by. I am so dead when this comes to on road. I would be sweeping down 12 cars whenever the accelerator is pressed. Hallelujah. People, try avoid USJ this month will you?!
Complete update due next post.
Owh and before that, I have got hold of The One Republic’s album-Dreaming Out Loud. Facking awesome. I actually liked ALL the tracks in this albums. And thats a rare thing to say.
Recommended track:
The One Republic
i. Prodigal
ii. Won’t Stop
iii. Stop and Stare
iv. Goodbye Apathy
v. Someone to Save You
vi. Come Home
vii. All We Are
And if you so happen to be hopelessly lazy to do a few clicking, just try on Prodigal. That one is a must. I insist.
And also Jordin Sparks. One-hell album.
Try No Air by Jordin Sparks fea Chris Brown. Its beyond awesome.
Other recommended track:
i. Now You Tell Me
ii. Next To You
iii. Just for The Record
iv. One Step at A Time
Feeling:
Listening to: Remy Zero-Fair
Better be better at doing it
October 27, 2007
I AM ON TOP OF CLOUDS NOW. I have already obtained in my hand over ten albums. I am so defeated. Media Appreciation exam is next Monday and here I am with headphones listening to all this ear food with full speed. What can I do about it? Not much. Its a difficult fight after all. More than ten albums and new songs which isn’t even out yet, most of them, how awesome is that?! So therefore, ignorance becomes bliss. I am appreciating my parent money on college fund, really. In fact, I am always spending most of time on books overnight, maybe even more than the others are. However, the output of it would be under another categorize. It happened when I found out mysteriously where to get these entire leaks out free albums download. It happened when the level of stress turned unbearable. Before I forget, regarding the fires from San Diego and everywhere apparently may the people stay safe. I was reading Jason Mraz’s journal, and boy was it a bad pee as he mentioned himself. The fire, which was blowing towards San Diego, gave him no choice but to get his stuff out of that house and waits for the fire’s next move. Mind you, he rushes back from London when all this happened.
No matter which way the wind was blowing or how many miles away it was or just who was watching after it didn’t matter. Nothing I lasted about 10 minutes in my house before I decided it had been way too long. My car had in it more than I needed, which is nothing but a tall stack of towels, some surfing boards, toiletries and first aid, a guitar, a few last minute precious Polaroids stuffed into favorite books… I felt silly shoving a stuffed duck I’ve had since I was 5 into my backpack. But you never know. I walked thru every room in the house and surveyed it as if I’d sold the place and wasn’t coming back. I flipped the lights on in the studio and sang a loud note and listened to it merge with the silence near the ceiling. I thought the piano looked a bit dusty and noticed where Eric had already saved his vintage keyboards. (Extracted from Jason Mraz’s journal.) Thoughts turned prayer, quoted him. Lets pray the victims stay safe. At least he managed to save his beloved cat while writing.
— Now on moooooosic post. *EDITED
mattered anymore. It felt like we had done something wrong by being there. It could probably smell us and by that mob was coming straight at us.
Homg ppl, human, population whatever, Simple Plan with their upcoming single LEAK:

Simple Plan- When You’re Gone
p/s Winnie you so gotta listen to it, its awesome.

And Emmy Rossum-High is soooooo good. I have been replaying since 2 days ago.
Listen to it through my sidebar playlist. Just press play godammit.
Clicks on the link below for Upcoming singles, plus
Albums featuring:

Grey’s Anatomy Vol.3 OST
Backstreet Boys-Unbreakable (LEAK)
James Blunt-All The Lost Souls
Mat Kearney- Nothing Left To Lost
Boys Like Girls- Me, You and My Medications
The Veronicas- Hook Me Up (LEAK)
Carrie Underwood- Carnival Ride
Colbie Caillat- Coco (LEAK)
Emmy Rossum- Inside Out (Ahh!)
Hilary Duff- Dreamer
Paramore- Riot
Click Here:
MY RECOMMENDED TRACK WILL BE IN BROWN. Grey’s Anatomy Vol.3 OST Track Listing: 1. Peter Bjorn And John – Young Folks Delicious album. If you havnet heard of this you must be having ear cancer and somehow this is the only cure. Bill Ricchini – A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door and The Bird And The Bee – Again & Again are my recomeneded. So is you’re a self-claimed GREAT fan of Grey’s Anatomy, you arent one till you listen to this album.:)
Backstreet Boys-Unbreakable (LEAK) Track Listing: This is the first Backstreet Boys album that Kevin Richardson is not involved with, but didn’t let that stop them. I know alot of you aren’t to fond of the boys being back, but I respect that they’ve been able to stick around for many years. p/s Westlife. They proved that people were still interested in them when they released “Never Gone” in 05, and their back to prove it again. The tracks I highlighted above are awesome tracks. Pls go dwld or take them from me. You Can Let Go and Treat me Right are esp in the right piano pop. Esp Treat Me Right-no matter how much you hated them, get this track pls. Adore their album cover design btw. James Blunt-All The Lost Souls Track Listing: 1. 1973 2. One Of The Brightest Stars 3. I’ll Take Everything 4. Same Mistake 5. Carry You Home 6. Give Me Some Love 7. I Really Want You 8. Shine On 9. Annie 10. I Can’t Hear The Music 11. Dear Katie (Single Version) 12. So Happy (Single Version) James Blunt’s 2004 debut, Back to Bedlam, charmed American audiences like a bad Hugh Grant movie, only moonier:soft, unfailingly polite, very sappy. On All the Lost Souls, Blunt again delves into pretty folk pop, though he comes up with a couple of the-weird “One of the Brightest Stars” and “Give Me Some Love,” with a hilarious chorus that begins, “Why don’t you give me some love?/I’ve taken a shipload of drugs.” The album cover design— EVEN BETTER. Absolutely splendid. Mat Kearney- Nothing Left To Lost Track Listing: Ahhh I superduperawfully loveee him. Where We Gonna Go From Here are to die for, and also Renaissance. He rapped also, not the kinof Olang rap, but those telling stories pleasant rap. And dont get fooled by his voice cause well he might sound 40 something, but hell no, he’s not. He’s kinof hawt, moreover. Boys Like Girls- Me, You and My Medications Track Listing: The most requested album! Haha. Love the lead singer’s voice and everything bout them. Winnie knows what I am crapping! :) Go for Learning To Fall , Heels Over Head and Holiday. The Veronicas- Hook Me Up (LEAK) Track Listing: I am still hooked up with their last album. Not the typical Paris Hilton or clubbing gal who produce album just for the sake of well, album, they have got something extra. But to be honest I really prefer the last album, cause this album somehow, its really pop electric and dancing track. Except a few, which is mostly the one I recommended. Revenge Is Sweeter [Than You Ever Were] are good. So ha-ha. Carrie Underwood- Carnival Ride Track Listing: WOOHOOO this woman makes the whole world to learn the genre Country Music all over again. This album is absolute awesome. A s I have mentioned in the previous music post, her So Small will be the 1st single, that one awesome track. Wheel of the Worlds will make you cry, in my case. Colbie Caillat- Coco (LEAK) Track Listing: Ahh, finally I reached here. The Summer Album of the year. This is a MUST download. It just make you get the sun, run, jump, swim, stretch in the most relaxing way you could possibly imagine. I love this album dearly. Bubbly would sound familiar to most of you guys. Try go for The Lil Things. SPM-ers are so darn lucky to have this song with them while battling to study! Hmph. Emmy Rossum- Inside Out (!) Track Listing: 1.Slow Me Down NEED I SAY MORE?!! My ultimate favorite album which I already OVER-STRESSED in that last post. So darn atmospheric, dancing along with the beautiful melody. Conclusion JUST FREAKIN listen to the whole album for god sake. Musing in a new chamber of happiness. “Surrender now to ecstasy, move with me and make me real….“-High- Hilary Duff- Dreamer Track Listing: Okay this one. Uh Its all dancing track honestly. Therefore I only recommended one track-Dreamer. That one has awesome beat lah. Just that. Paramore- Riot Track Listing: Paramore would be ear medicine too. Try getting all the tracks. No regrets man. New Upcoming Singles Take That-Rule The World They watched Stardust and couldnt help loving it. Therefore they wrote this soundtrack specially dedicated to this movie-Stardust. First of all, that movie rawk socks, not children stuff okay doofus. And then this track, can die. Awesome.
Leona Lewis- Bleeding Love X-Factor latest winner. Her power volume are the bomb lah. The idol after Shane Ward. This song rawks.
Mika-Happy Ending Like what I told Amir, if you feel like suicide, listen to this before doing that. You’ll know why. Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova- Falling Slowly Musical production soundtrack. I cried after listening, and also Surekha. GOOOO LISTEN! Its good. Sarah McLachlan- Answer Sorry no picture available BUT OMG best soundtrack of the year.( The Brave One Soundtrack) Remember that soulful track all the way in the movie, thats the track. Again, GO DWLD.
Avril Lavigne- Innocence Now this is the true meaning of Emo. Its a sad song.
FELL FREE TO DROP A COMMENT IF YOU REALLY WANTED ANY ALBUM ABOVE. WILL SEND YOU.
Feeling: Listening to: Shakira- Underneath Your Clothes
2. The Bird And The Bee – Again & Again
3. The Jealous Girlfriends – Something In The Water
4. Feist – Sealion
5. Bill Ricchini – A Cold Wind Will Blow Through Your Door
6. Grace Potter And The Nocturnals – Falling or Flying
7. Koop – Come To Me
8. Jesus Jackson – Running on Sunshine
9. Robert Randolph – Ain’t Nothing Wrong With That
10. Paolo Nutini – Million Faces
11. Mat Kearney – Breathe In Breathe Out
12. Gomez – Moon and Sun
13. John Legend – Sun Comes Up
14. Ingrid Michaelson – Keep Breathing
15. Brandi Carlile – The Story 
1. Intro
2. Everything But Mine
3. Inconsolable
4. Something That I Already Know
5. Helpless When She Smiles
6. Any Other Way
7. One In A Million
8. Panic
9. You Can Let Go
10. Trouble Is
11. Treat Me Right
12. Love Will Keep You Up All Night
13. Unmistakable
14. Unsuspecting Sunday Afternoon
15. Downpour
16. In Pieces
17. Nowhere To Go

1. Undeniable
2. Nothing Left To Lose
3. Crashing Down
4. Girl America
5. In the Middle
6. Can’t Break Her Fall
7. What’s A Boy To Do
8. Wait
9. Bullet
10. All I Need
11. Renaissance
12. Where We Gonna Go From Here
13. Won’t Back Down
1. The Great Escape
2. Five Minutes To Midnight
3. Hero/Heroine
4. On Top Of The World
5. Thunder
6. Me, You And Medication
7. Up Against The Wall
8. Dance Hall Drug
9. Learning To Fall
10. Heels Over Head
11. Broken Man
12. Holiday
1. Untouched
2. Hook Me Up
3. This Is How It Feels
4. This Love
5. I Can’t Stay Away
6. Take Me On The Floor
7. I Don’t Wanna Wait
8. Popular
9. Revenge Is Sweeter [Than You Ever Were]
10. Someone Wake Me Up
11. All I Have
12. In Another Life
13. Hook Me Up (Exclusive Interview)
1. Flat On The Floor
2. All-American Girl
3. So Small
4. Just A Dream
5. Get Out Of This Town
6. Crazy Dreams
7. I Know You Won’t
8. Last Name
9. You Won’t Find This
10. I Told You So
11. The More Boys I Meet
12. Twisted
13. Wheel Of The World
1. Oxygen
2. The Little Things
3. One Fine Wire
4. Bubbly
5. Feelings Show
6. Midnight Bottle
7. Realize
8. Battle
9. Tailor Made
10. Magic
11. Tied Down
12. Capri
2.Inside Out
3.Stay
4.Falling
5.The Great Divide
6.Lullaby
7.Don’t Stop Now
8.High
9.A Million Pieces
10.Rainy Days and Mondays
11.Anymore
1. Stranger
2. Dignity
3. With Love
4. Danger
5. Gypsy Woman
6. Never Stop
7. No Work, All Play
8. Between You And Me
9. Dreamer
10. Happy
11. Burned
12. Outside Of You
13. I Wish
14. Play With Fire
1. For A Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic…
2. That’s What You Get
3. Hallelujah
4. Misery Business
5. When It Rains
6. Let The Flames Begin
7. Miracle!
8. CrushCrushCrush
9. We Are Broken
10. Fences
11. Born For This
12. Decoy (Bonus Track)
13. Stop This Song/Lovesick Melody (Bonus Track)
14. Misery Business (Acoustic Version) (Bonus Track)




Before Me-out, Appy Burpday to my mulish sister, Fleur and Winnie. Honestly Fleur that women in BEP’s concert during her burpday night, our wishes will never be able to top that cheh. Hah kiddin. Have an awesome one.
Little 24 hours different
October 24, 2007
I am slurping down cappuccinos ice cream now. Ice cream is the godness, followed by McDonalds, cookies and Starbucks. I will put anything into my body at times like this.
And was instructed to be confused.
I dont want to okay.
Here’s the thing. I am really having some sort of sick-fed up variations going on in me. Fragile relationships leaves a trace everywhere I goes. Its thoroughly pissing me off. Its as if for them, no chain is strong enough and no choice is wrong enough. Right now, let me tell you that it is damn truly important to learn the words “relationships” all over again. Cause everything felt changed. And the world is blardy hell messed up.
|:One broke up can actually rocked out a hundred and seventeen comments from souls who have absolute nothing to do with it. How devoting. Everything is revolving around blaming each other I guess.
Does relationships have a lost and found. I so hope they do.
Although its none of my business anyway.
—
Back to my life. To me theres no better exams than today’s one. Drives me bizarre. Excluding the worst exam of the lifetime yesterday.
1. Social Psychology(Today)
Being told to shut the hell up at the beginning of the test by Miss Rose( something) makes me assumed a strict exam for the next one and a half hours. Until a genuine point where Miss Malar admit on setting one wrong essay Q that carries out 20 marks. It was hallelujah. She NOT ONLY gave free answers for five MCQ questions, but also a discussion on series of answers for the rest of the essays Q, being unable to escape from the guiltiness.
Robin : Alah miss, now that we only have 3 choices of Questions to choose from-Unfair.
Kien: Yealah miss. At least give us some help. Or something..
Miss Malar: Okay okay fine. Which question you needa know?!
Class: (Stoned up with three rounds shaped on the faces-both eyes and mouth, as round as
dinner plate.) Wooooo.
I hadn’t a clue what was going on for a split second. That “okay okay fine” was the least I could have expected okay. I was expecting a shut up again though. Needless to say, the rest of the day was a tuiton session. Pronto. We are permitted to raise our hand highly in the air to ASK A QUESTION. In an exam. Wtf. I am sure there are weird things that get tossed into the daylight everyday but this?! And they dont called this cheating. Only sudden inspiration.(cough to someone). I require a great amount of medication now and you would immediately know WHY after reading the next topic. Here goes.
2. English for College Studies III (Yesterday)
Two reading passages which were proved more than 40 minutes needed. One darn hell confusing essay. 5 section for each reading passages. It’s only natural to think that NONE OF US IN THE ENTIRE class finished in one freaking hour. Except for Tash( high speed rage than the normal), Nadia and Jing who went for a journey called TIKAM.
T___T
I was literally shaking, my views were zoomed out to view the earth from afar. Mind you, I have never ever emptied that much of spaces in an exam okay. Not even Biology. And after much investigation, we were by right suppose to have ten more minutes for the paper. Ten sweet minutes which would most probably changed the universe. Dr Lean is so freaking evil. FYI, the second reading passages was about the missing of frogs on Earth. And this is a brief scene on what happened right after we hand in the paper with the most horrified last glance on the paper.
85% of the class: I didn’t finish my FROG!*faint
30% of the class : Mahai.
64% of the class: My essay only stopped at
“On the other hand,”
45% of the class: Shake their head endlessly.
1% of the class: (Tash)Why do you all look
so sad?
2% of the class: Bought 8 waffles. (Us)
5% of the class: Turned purple from red.
10% of the class: Grinned like some psycho Green
Goblet. I have no idea why…
Otherwise we survived.
I think for the next Econs test this coming Thursday, Santa Clause would make a guest appearance and we would open our test paper to find blank sheets.
Something like that.
Feeling:
Listening to: Mat Kearney- Renaissance